I feel like I'm holding back.
I can't put my feelings into the proper words, even though I want so much to be able to.
I want all those I care so much about to know just how much I care about them, or to let any similar emotion show in my face. But it seems I can never really show it.
I see everywhere that plenty of people have no trouble with this- everything, or most things, are apparent on their face, at least when they want their emotions to be known.
I wonder if I have a difficulty with it because I draw such a defined line between private and public thoughts. They hardly bleed into each other. I keep most things to myself, whether they are small or big problems or cause me little or a plethora of pain. Is it because of this that I feel hesitant to mention most things to anyone?
True, I don't usually have much anyway, but when I do I don't tend to openly share, either.
I'm always shocked to hear people saying that I always seem the most content or the "happiest person". How can I come across that way when I know that I'm really not?
I wish that I wasn't so weak;I want to be stronger, but I feel like I'm just not able to exert all that I really have inside of me.
1 comment:
Honestly Paige, you brighten people's days. It's not that you appear happy, but you remind us all of the simple things we came to miss and love.
I know, it's hard expressing emotions... :/
I don't see you as weak, honestly I see you as one of the most strongest people I know.
You deal with so much stress, yet you still manage to succeed, at least thats what I always and will think...
I miss you, and hope you feel better...
:]
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